Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. (Hebrews 4:16 ESV)
I’ve been wrestling to find my words for a month now. I want to ask for your grace in advance, for they haven’t softened enough over the last four weeks. However, if I try to hold them back any longer, I truly fear falling apart, and it would be ugly.
There has been a rainbow in my sky for the last two days. God continues to remind me that He has a good plan and that He keeps His promises. I’ve needed these reminders for many reasons.
Our work truck needs to go in the shop. It has a blown head gasket and the estimate is $3,500 for the repairs. This is on the heels of the truck and tractor breaking down while I was away at Lummi. We had just started to recover financially from those repairs when the truck broke down again. We need this truck for Jason to be able to work. So, I started a prayer board with the girls listing the amount of money that we were short at the top. I told them, “Girls, we’ve got two weeks to see God provide the money we need for this truck.” Take 2/3 of your monthly income, that’s equal to how much extra we needed to see God provide. We watched as $10 came, then $20 and then another $10…
It’s been just over a week and the money is all here.
Our middle child exhaled tonight, “Wow, God really does provide.” What graces to see a great purpose in our trials.
I’ve been listening and watching people’s “needs” for the last month. “I need to get my nails done again this week because we’re going to ___ and they need to match.”, “I needed a Starbucks today because their new drink was irresistible.” and today’s favorite, “I need to return my book because the cover is creased and it arrived a day after the release date.”
We have known need over the last six weeks. I haven’t sweated it too much. Do you want to know my secret?
There are people that I love that are hungry right now.
Can I please repeat that: There are people that I love that are hungry right now.
I hear these petty needs and my stomach drops. I cook my own family a healthy wonderful meal and I stare at my plate wishing that I could give it to… and I name their names and I see their faces and my heart breaks a little more for there are people I love who know need like I have never known.
“By this we know love, that he laid down his life for us, and we ought to lay down our lives for the brothers. But if anyone has the world’s goods and sees his brother in need, yet closes his heart against him, how does God’s love abide in him? Little children, let us not love in word or talk but in deed and in truth.” (1 John 3:16-18 ESV)
The last four weeks I have been learning to love in deed and in truth. My personal truth has been changed and I won’t ever be the same, at least I pray I won’t. I too have enjoyed trips to the spa, Starbucks and perfect books, but not anymore. They make me sad and they make the 2,300 miles between me and the Lummi feel like a million miles because there are people that I love there that are hungry tonight.
We’ve been saving our nickles and our dimes because we have a truck that needs repair. We’ve stayed faithful to tithing to the church and to our personal missions account. God has provided enough birthday cards to send to the camp kids this year. I have half the stamps, but it’s enough for today.
In this place, I feel the gap of need and see the weakness of my own faith, for He really does provide! I’m asking you to walk into this with me. You may not know their names or recognize their faces, but you know me. I feel the deep need to step in and help these children and families more than I can do on my own.
I have real opportunities to love who God has put in front of me, but I need your help. Please consider joining me. I have the details of needs listed on my go fund me page.
“I have received full payment and more. I am well supplied, having received from Epaphroditus the gifts you sent, a fragrant offering, a sacrifice acceptable and pleasing to God. And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. To our God and Father be glory forever and ever. Amen.” (Philippians 4:18-20 ESV)
Love God And Whoever He Puts In Front Of You